I highly recommend anything written by Mark Buchanan. I am just starting his newest book called Hidden in Plain Sight – The Secret of More.
Here’s a little snippet that pierced me tonight.
page 16 “Something chases most of us. Some dark appetite, some deep prejudice, some wildcard emotion. We usually find ways to manage it: stitch fig leaves to conceal it, develop verbal ruses to deny it, borrow pat explanations to justify it. But we feel its stain and weight. We know if offends a holy God. And we wish he’d just show up in our sleep and pluck the thing clean out, and let us wake up as wholly new creations. The years pass, and instead we make our home with our sins and our demons, and just hope no one finds out.”
That makes me just want to cry out with David when he says, “Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me. Do not cast me from your presence or take your Holy Spirit from me. ” (Psalm 51:9-10).
I am so imperfect. I make so many mistakes. I sin.
And I never want to get to the point where I deny that it is so.
Oh, Jesus, my sweet Jesus, I need you.