Everyday Spectacular

Imperfections. Ramblings. Life to the Full.


Does anyone else find the acknowledgements section of books to be enjoyable reading? I like to read them to see how the author has sought to bring his/her thanks in a way that is different than a million authors and books before. Sometimes the author is concise and paints a simple picture of those important people who are deserving of recognition. Often the acknowledgements go on entirely too long, as people are thanked who seem to be irrelevant to the author’s literary journey, but are important to the author’s life and personhood.

This past week I read one acknowledgement that has stayed with me, ringing around in my brain, in fact.

In Khaled Hosseini’s The Kite Runner, He says…

    “Last, I don’t know how to thank my lovely wife, Roya
    -to whose opinion I am addicted…”

I gotta be honest. When I read that, I thought, I gotta show this to Jeff.

Here’s how I envisioned the conversation going…

    Me – “Hey, honey, look at this. This guy gave a pretty amazing compliment to his wife. Isn’t that a nice thing to say?”

    Jeff, after glancing at book – “Honey, if I write a book someday, I am going to do even better than that. I might even tell the world that the book is published under my name, but that all the ideas were yours. You are the absolute best wife I could have ever asked for.”

Ok, from there the conversation would’ve resulted in much hugging and would’ve extolled my virtues even more, but it’s a tad bit embarrassing to write it all out on here. I think you get the gist.

In reality, I didn’t end up showing the acknowledgement to Jeff.
If I had, the real conversation we would have had would have looked more like this…

    Me – “Hey, honey, look at this. This guy gave a pretty amazing compliment to his wife. Isn’t that a nice thing to say?”

    Jeff, after glancing at book – “Yep.” (Pause.) “Did you get the mail yet today?”

To be fair, I KNOW that I am loved, valued and appreciated by my husband.
I just want to be MORE loved, valued and appreciated by my husband.
There is this really nasty part of me that always wants MORE, a part that is never satisfied, always wondering “Do I matter today/right now/in your life?”
I am an attention-seeker, but I do it in a sneaky, round-about way.

The problem with all of this…Romans 12:2-3 “Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will. For by the grace given me I say to every one of you: Do not think of yourself more highly than you ought, but rather think of yourself with sober judgment, in accordance with the faith God has distributed to each of you.”

And here’s the real truth of the matter: I would rather use my sober judgment on everyone else, and my intoxicated ideas on myself.

But I do not think God is impressed with my sneakiness, and I know for sure that it isn’t really making me feel better about myself either.

I WANT TO LIVE IN TRUTH. ALL OF IT…even if it means there is no book acknowledgement written about me.

How about you? In what ways have you been trying to manipulate others to stroke your ego?


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